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when you're a kid it's different
have you ever thought that once you indulge in something just for the best but puts you a lot of pressure can make you wonder if this is really for the best?
(the feeling of a kid being forced to)
to tell you the truth, i'm the kind of girl who studies a lot......
a kid, who was running for honors...
but then, somewhere in the back of my mind,
something's been telling me
that i must stop, coz its a lot of pressure....
my parents wanted me to be the first....
i never wanted to, but i have to....
i don't have a choice......
so i studied very hard and got scared of the fact that someday i'll lose...
i felt very scared if i'll lose meeting up with my grandfather with a fierce look
like you'll die.....i hated it....i was scared of it.....
then i got this feeling of anger....
it feels like i detest my family....
but becoming a rebel wasn't part of the plan though....
still i didn't have a choice...
i got this thing stuck up in my mind that if i run away;
where will i go? who could i run to?
i guess that's no one....i don't even know my relatives....
i felt completely helpless.....tags :
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I sorta feel related to what ur trying to say... (i think) ... n_n
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THANKS for understanding then.....i feel like i have a friend now...